How to Cleanse a Heart?

I am still wondering why when everything is going well that I still have wickedness in my heart. I have heard there is a bible quote about cleansing ones heart or something. I need to do that and rid myself of my wicked soul, thoughts whatever is the root of my unhappiness. I wonder why we so often go on self destructive behaviors. I find myself clinging to them like a security blanket and it truly bothers me something awful. I keep fighting them though and I will beat them but will it be to late will I have hurt the ones I love by then or will I finally win. I do not know I can only put my life in Gods hands and hope he can help me find the strength I need to be a better man. I have so much to lose more than I ever have in my life now and this is when it seems to be the hardest to keep the faith. Who knows I do wish I could cleanse my heart and be the man I know I am. Sorry I am just rambling on and on about nothing and everything. I blog I think as a form of venting as well as a way to get feed back but what is funny I never get any feed back I am just not that interesting it would seem lol! Oh well I suppose it is better to be unknown than known on these things. I will continue on trying to keep my heart and self in line and God willing pull myself up out of a potential nose dive. I will do it I always manage to keep it together and I will find a way to cleanse my wicked heart!

The Way!

I often wonder how God knows what or who we need in our lives when we are seeking our way. Mine is so blessed these days I could burst. I have the love of a beautiful woman both inside and out and of course the little red dog for whom always gives me unconditional love and affection. I truly am blessed by all these people and kindred furry spirits. I recently became a grandfather and I felt that feeling I felt when I held my daughter for the first time. Love so deep and pure that only a love that has existed form times beginning could have sent it my way. My grandson has touched my heart in the same way I am madly in love with him and I have only just met him! I find it hard to understand how we can do this but I never look at a gift such as that as being anything but a miracle in my life so for this I give thanks! I recently went to south Padre Island in Texas! It was for the most part it was a great experience, I was with my girl and my dog. I was stressed out on the financial side of things, so I was not having as great a time as I could have and probably ruined it for my girl by stressing as well but she was a trooper and kept the faith. I am trying to get myself ready to return to school but I have failed over and over to save money as I needed to so things have been a tad bit tight for me and the pup. We will weather this storm and all storms to come I assure you of this for sure! I am so very glad for each breath I draw and hope that God blesses my daughter my grandson and all my friends and family with a long and very happy lives while we all keeping seeking our way in life!

Sunsets over Beaches

Well much has changed in my life since last I wrote to the world. Where to begin I must say I have retired my bunny tail and opened my heart to love once more. Quite refreshing to feel someones touch from even afar. I am truly blessed to have met a kind and loving person in this world of unfeeling and self centered people. I look forward to the future and whatever it holds so bring it life I am ready! On another note the Camino De Santiago I never wanted to do a pilgrimage but now I do strange how life adds things to your bucket list. I am to understand peligrinos have been doing that road for the last thousand years which is exciting to me and quite spiritual. I also wonder about what my future holds I am going to quit my job soon to go back to school and do not know what lies in store for me. I should take the safe route but what is a life unless you take chances to better it. I am tired of a life unlived and seek to live once more. I have been doing some travels with the little red dog and I need to break in a new back pack it calls to me to do so soon. I have begun portion control of food and my weight has been dropping dramatically as well as some regular exercise which seems to be helping this old dog stay fit. We shall see if I can walk away from my beer consumption lol! Damn you beer why do I love you so! So life in general is good and I am ready for a summer of adventure who knows where it will take me hopefully home to Australia I so miss my beaches! Oh and what about this upcoming end of days whats up with that are we gonna have one or is it another George Orwell type scenario I wonder. Any how me and the little red dog hope all is well in my readers worlds and that you find the trail you need to be on in life and that you always have sunsets over beaches from now on!

A New Moon Rising!

Well the new year is at hand and I am feeling quite good about the direction I am heading! My job still sucks but I am thankful for having one! I will fix that soon when I start back to school and try to make a new life and a new career! I have met some one and I really am glad to have found her quite a surprise in my hum drum little life! So weird to find some one that is so much like you and yet different enough to make it interesting we shall see where this goes but so far it's going very well! My daughter has been on a roller coaster ride as of late details to follow but I will pray for her and hope for the best! I hope that life is everything that my friends and family want it to be and that you all find the new year to be more than you could have hoped for! I will keep looking for another job and I will keep hoping for a better tomorrow! Live well my friends just wanted to wish you all the best on this new moon rising!