How to Cleanse a Heart?

I am still wondering why when everything is going well that I still have wickedness in my heart. I have heard there is a bible quote about cleansing ones heart or something. I need to do that and rid myself of my wicked soul, thoughts whatever is the root of my unhappiness. I wonder why we so often go on self destructive behaviors. I find myself clinging to them like a security blanket and it truly bothers me something awful. I keep fighting them though and I will beat them but will it be to late will I have hurt the ones I love by then or will I finally win. I do not know I can only put my life in Gods hands and hope he can help me find the strength I need to be a better man. I have so much to lose more than I ever have in my life now and this is when it seems to be the hardest to keep the faith. Who knows I do wish I could cleanse my heart and be the man I know I am. Sorry I am just rambling on and on about nothing and everything. I blog I think as a form of venting as well as a way to get feed back but what is funny I never get any feed back I am just not that interesting it would seem lol! Oh well I suppose it is better to be unknown than known on these things. I will continue on trying to keep my heart and self in line and God willing pull myself up out of a potential nose dive. I will do it I always manage to keep it together and I will find a way to cleanse my wicked heart!

The Way!

I often wonder how God knows what or who we need in our lives when we are seeking our way. Mine is so blessed these days I could burst. I have the love of a beautiful woman both inside and out and of course the little red dog for whom always gives me unconditional love and affection. I truly am blessed by all these people and kindred furry spirits. I recently became a grandfather and I felt that feeling I felt when I held my daughter for the first time. Love so deep and pure that only a love that has existed form times beginning could have sent it my way. My grandson has touched my heart in the same way I am madly in love with him and I have only just met him! I find it hard to understand how we can do this but I never look at a gift such as that as being anything but a miracle in my life so for this I give thanks! I recently went to south Padre Island in Texas! It was for the most part it was a great experience, I was with my girl and my dog. I was stressed out on the financial side of things, so I was not having as great a time as I could have and probably ruined it for my girl by stressing as well but she was a trooper and kept the faith. I am trying to get myself ready to return to school but I have failed over and over to save money as I needed to so things have been a tad bit tight for me and the pup. We will weather this storm and all storms to come I assure you of this for sure! I am so very glad for each breath I draw and hope that God blesses my daughter my grandson and all my friends and family with a long and very happy lives while we all keeping seeking our way in life!